Edington
Last Son of The Miracle
Christmas is here. I wish I could go back to the time when I was really excited for it.
My main gripe is the present buying - and receiving, actually. It's not the money that bothers me, I'm not being cheap and it's not as though I can't afford it, not bragging I'm just careful and good at saving. It's so stressful. My family, or my Dad's side at least is quite big, there are 13 people to buy for and I have absolutely no idea what to get any of them. Four of them are children so they're slightly easier, but the rest feel like a wasted effort. Things I've bought before have never been used or are just things that I didn't put much thought into because I was at the end of my rope and completely devoid of ideas. Most of what I buy is something that they neither want or need. That cuts both ways. As I get older I don't want as much so I end up with things I didn't ask for and it makes me feel so guilty to think that they've wasted their money on me. I'd rather not bother with the present exchanging, I enjoy spending the season with them which is enough for me.
My main gripe is the present buying - and receiving, actually. It's not the money that bothers me, I'm not being cheap and it's not as though I can't afford it, not bragging I'm just careful and good at saving. It's so stressful. My family, or my Dad's side at least is quite big, there are 13 people to buy for and I have absolutely no idea what to get any of them. Four of them are children so they're slightly easier, but the rest feel like a wasted effort. Things I've bought before have never been used or are just things that I didn't put much thought into because I was at the end of my rope and completely devoid of ideas. Most of what I buy is something that they neither want or need. That cuts both ways. As I get older I don't want as much so I end up with things I didn't ask for and it makes me feel so guilty to think that they've wasted their money on me. I'd rather not bother with the present exchanging, I enjoy spending the season with them which is enough for me.