One thing I hate is when I get fixated on people I don’t like. And then I start to generate that into types of people I don’t like. I’ve wanted so much to become stronger but I’m clearly still fragile. Big gatherings, large masses of people are usually not my thing, but sometimes you have to get out there between the people. And then there’s all this noise coming at you from all sides, people telling you what to do and how to be, it drives me nuts. I’ve done enough to know how I need to be, and no one (unless they know me down to the bits) has the right to correct me on that. It hurts when these are people you’ve known for a long time, and wish they’d already caught the essence of you, but still keep treating you like you’re somebody else. Lately I’ve had so much negative energy from different people, I can’t deal with it anymore. I acknowledge there’s also been positive energy, from one coworker in particular, but the narcissistic assholes get to me. I wish I could ignore them but they get to me.