We bought those at Costco (Grape Leaves) ... they are different but I liked them. The kids did not .
@Saap ... after my divorce, I felt the same way (used to people. then no one) ... I have no idea where you are, but try to fin stuff to do ... I joined a softball league and started hanging out more with some people at work, went to more concerts, etc ... .maybe if there are some local clubs worth joining or volunteering places is good as you see people worse off than you, you meet some new people, and have something worthwhile to spend your time on
Hope this is not too preachy .. just a suggestion or two. Good luck.