Mental Health Thread

[vaszaer]

My attitude towards death changes depending on how I feel. Most likely, I'm not afraid to die. But sometimes, in phases of deterioration, I don't feel either the strength or the desire to live. And when I am stable, then I can enjoy the little things, and I don't want to lose this pleasure. But there is more and more darkness. I also visit a specialist who puts things in order in my head. But our sessions started only a month ago, and I'm still a little scared that I might mess things up. My feelings often turn out to be stronger than common sense, and I begin to think about destructive things as if this is the only reality. I hope that a psychologist will help me get rid of these thoughts.

 

[Deadeye21]

I have no phobia of passing away, just stopping when I close my eyes. It’s a fear of the untimely death. And even more than that for me, it’s the fear of going alone and without having served any purpose.

 

[Boroking]

I've always been a little ambivalent about death as i have always seen life as an essentially pointless endeavour with no meaning. Now i have succesfully passed on my genetic material i suppose meaning is to be found in the raising of my children but i still can't get over the thought that amongst the vastness of the universe and the infinity of time nothing we do as individuals matters. We're here for a heartbeat of time and gone and forgotten within another heartbeat. Which in a roundabout way i find comforting.

 

[Saapanael]

I've always been a little ambivalent about death as i have always seen life as an essentially pointless endeavour with no meaning. Now i have succesfully passed on my genetic material i suppose meaning is to be found in the raising of my children but i still can't get over the thought that amongst the vastness of the universe and the infinity of time nothing we do as individuals matters. We're here for a heartbeat of time and gone and forgotten within another heartbeat. Which in a roundabout way i find comforting.

It is comforting in a way, I agree.

 

[Black Abyss Babe]

Lately I’ve been worried about the future. I don’t know what I want to do with my life, if I want to do anything at all.

It may help if you remember that this may not be a single-answer question, ie you don't have to spend your entire life doing just one thing.

I've had a pretty checkered life one way and another - I've spent quite a lot of it doing a string of what most people would probably consider dead-end jobs, or on the dole. But I don't regret any of it - I've met some wonderful, colourful people who I wouldn't have met if I'd had a straight career path from A to B. Then, seemingly by good luck, I landed in a career where everything I ever did (including a few subjects I dropped out of at school) somehow manages to all be useful. But that career doesn't define me as a person, it's just something I seem to be good at that I can use to make a living. Nothing, once learned, is ever entirely wasted

I sometimes envy the productivity and achievements of people who are driven all their lives to do just one thing, however I don't envy the psychological problems they often seem to end up with ...

 

[Bruins1]

Do any of you take any sort of medication? Granted, I don't think most people fear death for it is going to happen anyway. However, I've read enough comments here to see that do need help in the way that they are feeling and have the feeling of just wanting to give up. I've posted similar comments. I suffer from panic attacks especially while driving. I can't go on the highway unless I am a passenger. There are times when i was afraid to leave the house. I take Zoloft which has helped immensely and exercise alot. I have xanax, but I don't like taking it for though it kills my anxiety, it makes me lethargic. Similar to a muscle relaxer. Hate the stuff.

 

[Boroking]

Do any of you take any sort of medication? Granted, I don't think most people fear death for it is going to happen anyway. However, I've read enough comments here to see that do need help in the way that they are feeling and have the feeling of just wanting to give up. I've posted similar comments. I suffer from panic attacks especially while driving. I can't go on the highway unless I am a passenger. There are times when i was afraid to leave the house. I take Zoloft which has helped immensely and exercise alot. I have xanax, but I don't like taking it for though it kills my anxiety, it makes me lethargic. Similar to a muscle relaxer. Hate the stuff.

Ive taken aripiprazole for the past 5 months, that was after 10 years medication free. I get panic attacks as well but they’re largely work/ social related.

My main issue is that when I’m under stress my brain just tells me to kill myself as a solution which is not useful and just escalates the drama quite quickly. The meds have helped with that, but the underlying causes are still there. I’m doing CBT currently but haven’t found it that effective but I’m much more stable than I was which I still count as a win

 

[Bruins1]

Ive taken aripiprazole for the past 5 months, that was after 10 years medication free. I get panic attacks as well but they’re largely work/ social related.

My main issue is that when I’m under stress my brain just tells me to kill myself as a solution which is not useful and just escalates the drama quite quickly. The meds have helped with that, but the underlying causes are still there. I’m doing CBT currently but haven’t found it that effective but I’m much more stable than I was which I still count as a win

Wow. Good luck. Not sure how to respond this. As with just about everyone on this site, we all try to remain anonymous for none of us know each other in a personal way unless we live close by to one another. Getting personal is usually reserved for those that we know. Still, that doesn't mean we can't reach out to others we don't know in the hopes of finding others that're going through similar situations.
I tried explaining my panic attack issues with my older brother. His reaction? it was all in my head. That is until I rode home him in an hour ride on the highway to where I live. Had a bad panic during that time and my reaction freaked him out! Ha! We got off the highway ASAP and went route 1 the whole way back. Anyway, hope things work out for you.

 

[Boroking]

Wow. Good luck. Not sure how to respond this. As with just about everyone on this site, we all try to remain anonymous for none of us know each other in a personal way unless we live close by to one another. Getting personal is usually reserved for those that we know. Still, that doesn't mean we can't reach out to others we don't know in the hopes of finding others that're going through similar situations.
I tried explaining my panic attack issues with my older brother. His reaction? it was all in my head. That is until I rode home him in an hour ride on the highway to where I live. Had a bad panic during that time and my reaction freaked him out! Ha! We got off the highway ASAP and went route 1 the whole way back. Anyway, hope things work out for you.

Hey don’t sweat it. I’m not expecting a magic bullet, I was just having a bad day and this was ideal for a small offload.

I can relate with the unsympathetic family. I told my dad I was having issues again and he just rolled his eyes. At least he’s consistent in his parenting style

 

[Bruins1]

Hey don’t sweat it. I’m not expecting a magic bullet, I was just having a bad day and this was ideal for a small offload.

I can relate with the unsympathetic family. I told my dad I was having issues again and he just rolled his eyes. At least he’s consistent in his parenting style

I just looked up that medication you've been prescribed. That some serious stuff. Certainly worse than what I've been going through. Ha! About your dad. He will roll his eyes until he(like my brother/friends) actually see what you are going through firsthand or experience it themselves.

 

[Boroking]

I just looked up that medication you've been prescribed. That some serious stuff. Certainly worse than what I've been going through. Ha! About your dad. He will roll his eyes until he(like my brother/friends) actually see what you are going through firsthand or experience it themselves.

I’m on a relatively low dosage but it’s initial effect was quite something. Though it’s pretty much unnoticeable day to day now.

My dad is a whole other ballpark. He won’t change, my issue is to get past it. He did set me a good example of what I didn’t want to be as a father though so in a way he’s helped. I just do the opposite

 

[Brigantium]

I have no phobia of passing away, just stopping when I close my eyes. It’s a fear of the untimely death. And even more than that for me, it’s the fear of going alone and without having served any purpose.

This. I suspect it's the same for most people, actually. Everybody knows they'll die*. Those who face their death feeling they're unfulfilled and have left many loose ends fear it the most.

*Except Keith Richards, of course, he's immortal.

Do any of you take any sort of medication? Granted, I don't think most people fear death for it is going to happen anyway. However, I've read enough comments here to see that do need help in the way that they are feeling and have the feeling of just wanting to give up. I've posted similar comments. I suffer from panic attacks especially while driving. I can't go on the highway unless I am a passenger. There are times when i was afraid to leave the house. I take Zoloft which has helped immensely and exercise alot. I have xanax, but I don't like taking it for though it kills my anxiety, it makes me lethargic. Similar to a muscle relaxer. Hate the stuff.

I've had fluoxetine (AKA Prozac) on and off for years, and it's been a godsend. It was a very smart doctor who first prescribed it where others would have only prescribed drugs for anxiety. I had a phobia with intense anxiety, but with very noticeable OCD symptoms - a cycle of intrusive disturbing thought patterns and compulsive attempts to gain reassurance. She was completely right. I have a tendency to OCD thinking, and medication aimed squarely at that also obliterated the anxiety. I was amazed that I could think more clearly than I'd ever done.

I've had generic Zoloft/sertraline before and it did nothing apart from give me stinking headaches. I was prescribed diazepam for panic attacks too, thankfully the generic drug, not brand name Valium, which is strong stuff, but binned it after a few days. I'm glad I did. I've met too many people who've gone on to become addicted and it's messed them up worse long term.

 

[Saapanael]

One of life’s greatest illusions is that the grass is always greener on the other side. Wherever you are, whatever you do, others seem to have it better than you. It’s funny that we fall victim to such ideas, when life is so short that there shouldn’t be time to think about others’ lives at all.

 

[JudasMyGuide]

One of life’s greatest illusions is that the grass is always greener on the other side. Wherever you are, whatever you do, others seem to have it better than you. It’s funny that we fall victim to such ideas, when life is so short that there shouldn’t be time to think about others’ lives at all.

What's funny is that sometimes you can feel that way in different times in life, even though you were on both sides of the fence already.

As for the feelings of envy - it helps to think that "you don't switch just this one thing. You never switch just one thing. Would you really want to exchange everything"? That and - is the success I perceive really a success? Do I want even that one thing, let alone all the others?

 

[Saapanael]

What is it that makes life worth living? Is it love, a sense of belonging, self-actualization? The pleasures of instant gratification render long-term fulfillment impossible. How to regain the desire for life that is inherent to us when we are very young? How to overcome the inability of living a meaningful life? One step in the right direction that I know of is keeping physically active. Physical health is the prerequisite for everything else.

 

[Brigantium]

Nurturing or rediscovering self identity, a strong sense of self and knowing your internal basic emotional needs and wants. External factors do affect that, but if your sense of self is completely reliant on external input, you're not in touch with yourself.

On a completely different note, I want an autism assessment. I keep thinking 'nah, I'm not, I'm imagining this', and keep coming back to the same unexplained overload, overwhelm and social exhaustion with what 'should' be everyday situations. Plus way too many people I befriend either turn out to be autistic or have ADHD, they feel like the 'normal' ones I have something in common with. There's something neurodivergent going on here.

 

[____no5]

What is it that makes life worth living? Is it love, a sense of belonging, self-actualization?

The realisation. Understand what you came here to do and do it.

 

[jazz from hell]

 

[Saapanael]

Been thinking about death a lot lately. Deaths of close ones, deaths of innocent children in war, my own death. Frankly, reading the news has become overwhelming and I’ve done a disservice to myself by reading extra about atrocities of past wars and other negative topics. I’ve been working out to get my mind off of bad things but anxiety is getting the better of me. I have thoughts like: “What if my mother dies suddenly and I’ve been unable to tell her how much I care about her?”

 

[Night Prowler]

Don't read the news. I stopped reading about the Ukraine war altogether, for example.