Well, it started off with not catching the bus to go to school, resulting in another being late, which is annoying because every other morning the bus leaves right before my eyes, but that's kind of my own fault for not going outside on time.
Secondly, the weather has been unbelievably crappy all day.
Thirdly, the lunch at school was fish so I didn't get to eat anything for a long time, which
makes me tired, grumpy and makes me feel bad (I normally eat fish, but the one at our school wouldn't be tolerated by anyone. I try to be respectful towards food, but
the fish really is horrible).
Then, in the lesson before the last one, I just fell into an endless thought-realm, not being able to do any assignments that we were given, hating every aspect of that boring, un-understandable yellow facility.
Oh, in the third lesson, which was music, I played some guitar, but it was fucking crowded, I couldn't get the guitar sound to be normal and I was nervous so I couldn't play shit, and that made me feel worse because music and playing the guitar are one of the few things that I enjoy.
Then, upon going to the dentist, I experienced a peculiar instance, it sank me even deeper into thoughts. It would be kind of awkward to explain the case more detailed, so I'll skip that.
And then there's every-day things like wishing to know someone better but not having the guts nor personality to do anything about it, and dreaming about meeting dear friends and stuff.
Last but not least, everyone seems to have plans of their one so there's no going outside either, just being ennuied at home.
Sorry, there's one more thing that makes my life horrible (read: destroys any kind of privacy and comfortable mood) and it occurs about once a month and lasts for a week, but it's one of the things in my life that's too fucked up to tell to anyone. Ever.
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Rant over, it feels great to get these things off of my chest, it helps to whine from time to time.