He knows he doesn't have any counter-arguments to what I said, he can't take that because he still hates me for an
old post I made and so he's trying to do an ad hominem against me by painting me as a hypocrite. The German in his post translates to something like "you're soaked in self-righteousness". To substantiate it, he brings up a vague memory of an inappropriate joke I probably made at some point to prove it and in order to reinforce his point he tries to suggest I wouldn't own up to that. I would if I knew what he's talking about; I just don't remember. I thought I once wrote something like "Iron Gayden" or "Dick in son" on the board when I was drunk, but I couldn't find it. I also did a search for posts containing "homo", but only found the one I linked to. I used the word "retard"
three times, and I know I used that gay seal image at least once, and I admit I thought it was funny in a very schoolboy way. I posted
this while drunk earlier this year, although you'd have to be really be mean-spirited to interpret it as anything but a bad pun on names.
But fine, let's put it all on the table.
I made gay jokes when I was in school in the nineties and early 2000s.
I lived with a Lesbian for several months when I was in my early 20's and she dragged me to a lot of gay parties and I went along because I didn't have many friends at the time, and at some point I became annoyed because that wasn't my subculture and I would have liked to meet straight chicks, so I might have let out an ill-advised statement or slur at the time (although if I did, it wasn't so anyone heard it, which of course may be worse because it's cowardly).
I wore blackface in school once, when we were doing a nativity play and we did a modern re-interpretation of the three wise men as foreigners, the black one being an American. Since we had no Blacks in the school and I could do an American accent, I put on brown face paint, not seeing anything wrong with it at the time. I was 12, I think. There might be a photo of it, I've never seen any though.
I once unsuccessfully tried not to laugh at a Holocaust joke.
I spend a lot of time in Bulgaria where I live next door to a Roma neighbourhood and they usually party until midnight in the summer, and I probably said "can't those Gypsies fucking shut up for once" in bed once or twice.
In grade 8 I called a rheumatic classmate of mine a "cripple". He laughed but I was nevertheless guilted by my teacher to apologise to him.
In grade 5 I asked a classmate of mine who wore a hearing aid if he's "deaf or stupid".
A few years ago I saw a guy in a train station attacking a girl and went between them, only for both of them to tell me they're friends and joking around and I didn't apologise but just said "fine" and it occurred to me later on that I might have reacted differently hadn't the guy been black.
I once patted a black kid on the head because I wanted to know what the hair feels like, I was around 25 then.
I lived in a lower class, high-immigrant neighbourhood in Berlin for ten years and occasionally brought up something I saw "Ghetto Turks" doing in conversation. Some 10-15 years ago I made a related Facebook post in which I said I saw two carrying a plastic bag from a bookstore and I said (jokingly) "I wonder where they stole that". I have since deleted the post and still cringe at it.
I shared an article about cultural appropriation on Facebook twelve years ago saying I thought it was a lot of bullshit.
Probably the biggest thing: Around the same time, I said several times to various people that gender studies is not a proper academic discipline because I was butthurt about a grade that was slightly lower than expected in a gender studies class I took. Mind you, I maintain the teacher was really bad in explaining what queer theory is, but that is not an excuse for me to block and develop prejudice against this field of study, and it took me several years and more experiences with LGBTQIA+ people to overcome my prejudice and educate myself on the subject properly.
Do you want more,
@jazz from hell or is that enough for you? Does anything in this disqualify any of my arguments?