Two sides are constantly fighting inside me. One side says: “You’ve got this. Keep working on yourself, focus on your work, studies and maintaining a healthy routine. Eat, sleep, stay active, you are your own master and no one else can put you down. You will find happiness yet.” While the other side keeps repeating: “You’ve been depressed for so long, you cannot overcome it whatever you do. Even if you manage to find happiness or stability, you won’t be able to feel any joy out of it, because you’re so dulled out already. And if you can’t take care of yourself, you won’t be able to offer any support to your family and friends. Just do yourself a favor and die.”
I would seek therapy if I could afford it.
